lucky number 5

ever wonder why or how certain things just come to be? or how it just so happens that you manage to land upon a pocket of perfect bliss? or how someone seems to step into your life at the exact time you needed them? what about when you discover something so real its unreal? or the power of when you are sharing a moment with someone while doing nothing, yet it means everything to you? these questions seemed to have captured my mind this past weekend. i feel at a lost for an explanation of exactly what i'm feeling. however, a few WORDS might do the trick.

in just the past "20 days"....

number five; it's a lucky number now. cravings of "SUSHI". sherlock holmes- more like jude law... but shhh!. 5:00 A.M. new years eve.... however, it all began shortly after Christmas. the IPHONE. "what ifs". wedding reception. red box. candle. MUSIC. realizing timing is everything. bowling a 156 baby. the unknown. "the white night". ichat. secrets. weekend in SAN FRANCISCO; couldn't have been happier. memories. conversations worth remembering. 2010. chewing gum and burts bees. attempting to learn a few words in a new language- most meaningful one being Обичам те.

the list could go on into details. but i think i'll keep them secrets for now. hope you aren't reading this right now- I would be completely embarrassed. i've debated blogging about this for many days now. but, i finally broke down because i realized "it" is a big part of me right now; too big to neglect. all i know is that this appears to be the beginning. lots to come. its a big year. am i scared? you bet. but its all a risk i am willing to take because.....

"the greatest risk in life is risking nothing at all."

-author unknown.