pain, pain go away. come again another day.

dear pain in my mouth....

you are killing me. you have made these last few days nearly unbearable. please go away soon. really soon. i want to be "me" again. however, as the saying goes... "no pain, no gain". i have realized that i have taken for granted a few things as you have made my life miserable lately. this is what it comes down to...

i lOve sTraWs. and i can't use one for who knows how long.

(i seriously am obsessed with straws. I have hundreds at home- because i put one in every drink. i miss them.)

i've now called hOme at every hour of the day. my dAd as been a real saint through this.

he has managed to help and comfort me when being miles away. incredible.

i've taken for granted how lovely it is to be hOme when you are sick. I have been craving

my own BeD. huGs from mOm. and the security and comfort of simply being home.

you have no idea how much i miss sMilIng and LauGhiNg.

i don't feel like myself without those two elements.

"rule: no carbonated drinks for ten days." what!?! I haven't had a

DiEt CoKe in forever. not fair.

oh well, it has been a good thing for me. now, i might stand a chance at being able to give it up now. we'll see.

because of my lack of strength and constant pain, i have had to sit back and watch rehearsal. SO HARD.

I just want to dAnCe.

i would love to be able to sLeep through the entire night. i have missed dreaming.

i didn't realize how vital sleep was- until now. i feel crumby due to exhaustion.

lastly, i simply miss feEliNg gOod. one thing is for certain- i won't be taking pain

medicine for a long time. i have had too much. my tummy hurts. and my jaw kills.

i know you mean well, Pain. but, it's time for you to go. life is moving too fast now days for me to be stuck in bed. you have over stayed your visit- but because of that i have realized the true value of "the little things" in life. this is day 4. 4 is my lucky number. Maybe you could say farewell today and let me sleep tonight. it's been real; in fact these last four days have been a little too intense. take care. (frankly, i wont be missing you.)

love, me.

wisdom teeth.

yuck. I hope I never have to be put under again- weirdest feeling of my life. As my dad said to me...."Elease, that is the closest you will ever feel to being drunk." He is right- if that's what you feel like after drinking.... no thank you. I'm glad it's over. Laying in bed is a blessing in disguise; I haven't had a day off in what seems like forever. I just wish I could be at home in my own bed, with my mom and dad at my side. There is nothing worse than being sick away from home. I am coping though, thanks to my bestest friend, who is the world's greatest. Not so sure I will forgive him for filming me while being loopy... but as for everything else he treated me like a princess. He is a real gem. And who knows how I will ever pay him back for all that he does. Well, I figure I will be in bed all day tomorrow with nothing to do but blog. I can't wait. Hopefully I won't be in too much pain to think of something decent and worthwhile to say. As crazy as it seems.... I missed dancing today. I can't wait to get back into the normal routine.... and the thing I am really looking forward to- is eating. Pathetic, I know... but, I'm starving. My wisdom teeth are out- so my worries are gone, my dreams are in process and my fear of my teeth moving has vanished. I'll leave you with the fact that I have a love/hate relationship with the experience of the procedure. I'm certainly glad it's a once in a life time surgery.

p.s. why are they called wisdom teeth? just a thought....